The power of chocolate chip cookies!

 


Giving a post like this a title isn’t easy.  I decided not to start with a title and move to the body of the writing and then I will decide what title will work.

This weekend sucked!!!!  I struggled a lot with emotions, memories and my thoughts got the best of me at times.  I pushed through and was honest with my girls about how I was feeling and they are so kind to me with extra hugs and chats.  I’m so glad they are here!!  I need the distraction of chats.  Chandler is so awesome at chatting - I’ve definitely met my match in the gift of gab department and I just love his honest approach - most of the time.  Haha. He makes my heart happy and is so willing to put his emotions out there!  If he ever reads this, thank you for choosing my girl - I love that you had to chase her love down like I did Jeans - I wish you as many amazing years together!! It makes you really cherish them!

Some of the details of this disease I choose not to share here. It’s just not for the public - I share what I need to so people know how we are doing.  If someone who has a loved one with ALS or FTD stumbles upon my blog and needs me, I’m here for you!!! I couldn’t find anything out there!!  Please message me and I’ll tell you everything I’m trying to understand about these diseases, finances, insurance, planning ahead, living in the moment, managing the days…etc.  Nobody should feel alone!

Im thinking of getting a new car - do I finance it, I don’t have much in the way of my very own credit - have always had Jeans income and endless resources.  If I buy now is it a good move or will I regret making a bill at this time?  But the credit score needs to be mine alone moving forward. I’m trying to expand my little barn/photography business so the financial piece is important for me.  I am loving all the things happening with my work.  I have a few specials I’m working on and can’t wait to promote them!  

Well, these things used to go into my journal but now it’s so easy to relax on my cozy bed and try to stay awake!  Thanks for taking the time to follow along. I hope the entries continue to be boring and uneventful.  

Good things from the weekend:  edited a few sessions I’m really happy with the results, tossed wildflower seeds into the grassy meadow at the studio hoping the timing is right with tomorrows rain and I cleaned my closet!!  Five or six bags for donation and the organized look made me want to bring my pillow and a blanket right in there for a nap - I kidding - no naps needed this weekend!  Ended it all with a fresh batch of chocolate chip cookies for my girlies looking for a sweet treat..I got you! 

Thanks for lookin!

~kel~

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