What a week!!

 Monday was Jean's birthday.  Full of emotions and indecision about what to do to celebrate him.  I decided to keep it normal.  His favorite meal for dinner and one of the only times he would partake in sweets was on birthdays (besides his love for @theblushinghen bakery stand/Tracie's chocolate chip cookies).  Got his favorite Alfred Tracks ice cream from Shaker Pond Ice Cream to share with the kids.  No song, just steak tips, roasted potatoes, asparagus followed by the treat.  I miss him so much!

Thursday made 8 weeks since his passing.  How is it even possible....time goes on...etc etc. you know what Im saying!  I sold his boat that day, no surprise, I cried again.  Kids talked me into a burger for dinner at a local spot after the sale and I was glad to get out.  Saw some familiar faces and didn't cry until I was back in the car for home.  Its the quiet times that my head screams the memories and I honestly can't believe the tears I still can cry..big ones that roll down my face!  I hate it but when I have days I get through without them, I feel guilty for it!

Today was incredibly special...with a very intimate group of people we celebrated the pending arrival of my first grandbaby!  A boy whose name will remain a surprise until his birth into this crazy world! Is there even a word bigger than excitement for how I feel about this tiny human entering my life?  I know we will be good friends!  I hope he will call me "Lovie" but my name will be his choice when the time is right.  Jean would have been Puppa...its how we referred to him when we talked to the dogs. 

The shower was sweet.  Kenna chose the theme "Blue Jean Baby" but I decided on most of the decorations.  I hung a pair of jean overalls that all my kids wore as babies.  Yep, I still had them because Marleigh, who is turning 21 in August, was only one year old when my photography journey began and I needed to keep the good stuff for clients (before there were ridiculously expensive and adorable vendors to buy original items from)!!  20 years I've been doing this!  I'm self-taught and proud I chased the dream!  I stuffed the overalls with daisies and tried to go for the casual BBQ/outdoor theme I had in mind before the rain decided today would be a good day to show up!  I wanted wild flowers and hints of earth for a natural look but when I couldn't find much for cut wildflowers I went white with hints of blue....looked like a wedding setting but its all good...my daughter stole the show with her gorgeous bump!

In two days it will be two months to the day that my best friend left this world...and my first time celebrating my birthday without him since I was 22 years old.  His work gave them their birthday's off as a holiday but he always took my date as his day off.  We would spend the day together, adventures that included a bracelet for me and adventure for us both.  He was okay with with whatever I wanted to do with the day...always so easy to be with!

Well the day has been long and I am tired.  I cant close without saying thanks so much to those who still check on me!  I am so grateful! 

~kel~