Sometimes I just cry....
I'm sorry if it makes you uncomfortable. I can be mid sentence and tear up. My heart is aching, its a heaviness all the time. I will be ok but sometimes I cry out of nowhere. It's hard enough to know Jean's body is failing him...sometimes in ways he doesn't share with me. I have to ask him very specific questions or ask Makenna to ask because he's more open with her. I don't know if he is trying to protect me or if he feels I'm over-reactive to his issues and will report to the doc (that's usually what I do as symptoms drive the disease and remedies for the symptoms). But this dementia thing with a man so young is cruel!! Our youngest JUST graduated last June and here we are preparing to watch this long goodbye ending. I'm really mad about it all! Trying to prepare financially, socially, plan for adjustments to the house to prepare for wheelchair accessibility, all the questions of what will happen first, who am I now, who will I be ...